Some days are harder than others.
I’m sure most humans can relate to that not-so-novel statement. The most recent occurrence for me was Monday. When I look back on it with renewed eyes, I can see that nothing bad happened on that day. Oddly…. nothing. bad. happened. The kids were at their schools on time, I was very productive, I had a perfectly bubbly coke from McDonalds, and my dinner turned out great. However, my emotions couldn’t seem to catch the “everything is going smoothly” drift. I just couldn’t stop crying. And no, they were not the my-eyes-are-a-little-misty tears. They were the my-face-is-contorted-and-I-wish-I-could-be-in-a-fetal-position type. I just couldn’t stop thinking about my sweet Brayden and fears I have for his future.
Earlier in the day, I had physical therapy for my foot (check out this post for more details) so I was in sweatpants and a sweatshirt. I am sure that I looked like a complete slob picking up Logan from school, but it was a very busy morning! Around 3pm I suddenly felt the need to get my emotions under control and get moving. Honestly, everything felt out of control for me so I wasn’t sure how I was going to do that. Then, I said, “Sarah, you know what you CAN do? Put on some jeans.” No, it did not fix everything and I still struggled with the rest of the day, but gosh, that simple act made me feel in-control again.
Perhaps you are like me, and you sometimes get stuck in an emotional cyclone, and if so, maybe start by simply putting on some jeans.
